Avoidance as a strategy

I cannot believe it has been almost TWO MONTHS since I posted!! That is not possible. Surely the dates are wrong. Right? No? Well.

That must mean I am avoiding ya'll. Actually come to think of it, I HAVE been avoiding ya'll! Why, you might ask, would I wish to avoid all of my lovely, supportive family and friends who have been, well, lovely and supportive? Well.

Mostly, lately, I am not sure from one moment to the next what I feel or think. Our second cycle of IUI was a bust. All of Dear Hubby's swimmers were thwarted. Cycle number three is in process as we speak, and we're post-insemination...waiting. Those are the hard and fast facts of the deal.

The rest of the deal is that I've been an emotionally messy wreck most of the time. And I am, quite frankly, embarrassed by it. So I didn't really feel like sharing much.

See I have this thing. I've mentioned it before. I greatly dislike people who whine on endlessly about how their lives suck. I also greatly dislike the behavior in myself. My motto: Change the situation or shut the hell up! So the IUI's aren't working. And now, I really just don't want to talk about it. The next thing you're likely to hear on the subject is if we actually do get pregnant or start IVF.

And that's all I have to say about that.